But I had a revelation this week. God doesn't want me to suffer every day, walk around moping and thinking negatively. And I remembered the song we sang at church a few days before, “Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me.” and I began to question myself and my attitude. Why the heck am I letting myself think I don't deserve good things? And sure enough, I went home and looked it: God wants to give his children good gifts (Mt. 7:11).
Those of you who have parents who told you every day that God loved you, be thankful. I didn't have that privilege, nor did I have a father that was even close to that of the Real Father. And any psychologist will tell you that a person's real father is the first impression of the Heavenly Father's love for them. So since I didn't have the love of my real father, I have a hard time believing that my Heavenly Father loves me. I really need a minute to minute reminder but unfortunately, life isn't like that and other things take precedence. Those things took over my life and God took a back seat.
In the next several weeks I'm going to do a Bible study on self confidence and self esteem, hopefully once a week, and I want to share this because I know there are other women out there who need the reminder too. Please pass on my website to someone who needs a pick me up. Stephwrites.weeble.com